Monday, January 16, 2006

last entry?

About the blog
This blog, entitled “I Will Survive”, is written by Sandee, a mother of 3 children, who has been diagnosed with breast cancer since 1998. Part of her breast was surgically removed, and she started receiving chemotherapy, which was “worse than the cancer itself”. After three years of treatment, while thinking that she had beaten the cancer, she was told that the cancer had spread to her bones. Two weeks later, three 1cm lesions were found on her liver that have the appearance of cancer mets, which were impossible to remove. Once again, she had to return to chemotherapy. Early September 2004, the cancer took a turn for the worse. More bone mets in the lumbar area were found. Also, a new lesion in her liver and three new lesions in her lungs were growing quite rapidly. Once again, chemo was ordered.

When Sandee first knew the horrifying news, she was devastated and cried all day. She was extremely worried that her three young children would soon lose their mummy. Luckily, after gradually meeting more unfortunate yet tough people, she was influenced and become more positive. In each of her entries, she is thankful for something or someone.

The blog has regular entries by Sandee, and is her place to escape from the ruthless reality. By writing her feelings and what she is thankful about in her blog, it keeps her mind off her cancer. The blog also allow her to meet people with similar situations or have gone through similar experiences. This provides mutual support and sharing of experience, which is essential to patients undergoing such a prolonged battle. Hence, the encouragement from her friends through the blog has been “a major key to her survival”. Sandee intends to write about life and survival, so as to encourage others to appreciate their lives more. She is now very involved with breast cancer research, also intending to raise awareness and funds for as long as she can. She emphasizes the importance of early detection, hoping to educate women to have regular BSE (breast self exams).

Reasons why I like this blog
I found this blog very inspiring and encouraging, and have learnt to think positively. Sandee, the blog writer, was at first devastated by the bad news that she had cancer. Yet she was tough and strong enough to get over her emotion, and started to think in a more optimistic way. By doing so, she eased the worried of people who cared about her, and also influenced them positively. Also, even at times of hardship, she always put her children in top priority, and always considered her children’s benefit. She attended her children’s school activities despite her frail and weak condition, trying to show her love towards her children. Besides, she was tough and determined that even her sickness did not hinder her active participation in volunteer work, so as to spread her care to the needy. She also helped in breast cancer research and education, hoping to benefit other people. Her consideration for others is admirable.

Her determination and toughness is also worth appreciating. Chemotherapy had tremendous detrimental impact on her body. Her nails fell off; she had chemo-induced diabetes, meaning that frequent insulin injection is needed; she had to undergo extra surgery to fix her blocked tear ducts due to chemotherapy; her nose and throat were also thinning and thus bleeding due to chemo… However, despite all the horrible and torturing side effects she had to go through, Sandee still had a very positive attitude towards life. She never complained or gives up, but instead, she was thankful to many simple things around her. The most impressive thing was that, she was “Still bald & very bloated from decadron but smiling cause there are wonderful people & things in my life that keep me happy!” Her incredible determination is a major reason why I liked reading her blog.

What I have learnt
After reading Sandee’s blog, I have learnt several things. First of all, I have realized the importance of showing care to people around you. Diseases, including cancer, are prevalent in our world today. It is not uncommon to have friends and family members to be diagnosed with fatal diseases, and we might be losing them in anytime. By then, it would be too late to regret and mourn over how little love and care we showed to people around us. We should treasure people around us by simply showing your appreciation, or perhaps as simple as throwing a big smile and genuine greetings.

Also, we need to treasure our health. Although causes of cancer are broad and somewhat gene-linked, we should do pay more attention to our health and develop good life styles. It is a pity that while people like Sandee struggle in the battle against disease, many others do things that harm themselves and bring them closer to disease or even death. Every day, there are numerous reports on self-suicide. Also, bad habits such as smoking, drug abuse and alcohol abuse are also common in our society today. Despite education and warnings of the detrimental effects of these habits, people still take the risk and get along with the health-damaging acts. Clearly, these people do not realize the extent of damage they are doing to their bodies, and are not treasuring their health. City-dwellers today also forgo their health for work and money. When their body is functioning well, people would not realize that health is a valuable asset. Hence health is often neglected, and no action is taken to enhance health until problem emerges. For instance, during SARS incidence in Hong Kong, people paid more attention to improve hygiene, like washing hands frequently and covering their mouth and nose when sneezing. However, after the pandemic, people gradually forgot and neglected their good preventive habits, and personal hygiene generally decreased. In conclusion, we should always pay attention to our health, and treasure what we have. We could all enjoy our lives more by learning to be thankful and not to take things as granted.

Ref: http://www.day-without-rain.org/sandee/

the first major project!!

finally here comes the day!!!

with only one hour sleep.......i took my exhausted body to the auritorium....
spent the whole day yesterday in maggies place to prepare the presentation

what i have done was so little and what they have done were so much!!
too bad that im not good at flash stuffs......

and i didnt go home until 5am this morning........
when it was raining like cats and dogs........

i have to go home by train then bus from her place
and.......
i waited for like 15 mins in the train station hoping that the rain will get less strong

but hope is only a hope.......
the rain became stronger and stronger........

i chose run to go to bus stop and that made me all soaked.........
like a just finished washing shirt from a washing machine

it was 06:45 when i arrived home.......
and the presentation..........was soso.......

hope its not too bad and girls.......
i really appreciate ur work~~!!

Thursday, January 12, 2006

good news

got a good news from my mates.......

mike minehan will give us one more week to finish the essay.....
thank heavens.........

i will be dead if he dont give us another week
seriously it will be too rush and im sure i will give him 2500 words with so few ref.

from russel....hes expecting some kind of verbal diarrhoea from us if he wants us to hand it in this thur

afterall......mike minehan is still the mr nice guy in my eye.......
he always follows students requests...........

actually we should have stolen so much time to use from his class
coz u know we always have early marks in his class.......

but then......we didnt use the time fruitfully so it comes to this situation
anyway.....we have got what we want and guys........

i think we really have to prepare for his essay
coz we can delay it no more~~

Monday, January 09, 2006

overnight prep......

gonna have a presentation on ros class tmr and our progress is just too slow
because andras group had made an excellent presentation so......

ros is expecting us all to make it like in a theatre.......
then we have to write script after finish doing research

it seriously make our heavy burden heavier..........
and dont forget that its monday and we have just finsihed class....!!

doing the preparation for two days time we realized that we dont really have enough time to finish it

so.......at the time of the library closing......i made a decision.....
i have to go home and have a shower then i will head to maggies place to continue our work

well......its not that first time to work overnight but still
it scares me abit.....

it was like 11pm when i arrive home and i have to catch the bus at 23:33
it was really a rush but then i have made it


after the entire night of struggling......
we have finished the scripts and handouts........


but we are dying~~

Saturday, January 07, 2006

anniversary

i dunno is it a must to be in terms of year........
but its been 38 months since i and my gf become a couple~~

frds of mine would know that my gf is my everything....
to be honest she is even more important than my parents~~haha

i guess because my parents will never dump me but i will have to do something to keep my gf with me~?

i dunno.......
we have been experiencing alot together for so many months and ofcoz we argued......
sometimes....

not often~~

i guess thats not an easy thing to keep a relatioship that long plus its more difficult to keep an oversea relationship isnt it?

people always say......to keep a relationship the best way is to trust ur partner
well i dun have that kind of theories and i know nothing about how to keep it

what i do is.....let it be...
i dun mean i dun care what she does and how she acts.......
but i mean i will just treat her as my gf......that simple....

like talk to her everyday using msn....
exchange our cares and concerns........

i know it sounds a bit stupid to talk everynight but so what??
we enjoy that.....well should say i enjoy that.......

im a big talker.....i dun mean i like telling others secrets but i mean
i really like to talk so much.......i guess all of u know that~~

so i have never faced the situation that i found nothing to talk to my gf......
the way we keep our relationship is.......to treat each other as...."someone"
someone important......
i guess thats the key?


shes now 19 and we have been together for almost 4 yrs........so......
she was 15 at that time.......haha
happy 3.83 years anniversary michael

Sunday, January 01, 2006

happy new year

went watch firework with my gf last night.....it was great!!

but then this is the last day of her visit so....we have to do osme pack up today
weather is hot like hell......

we do the pack up with lots of sweats and....for me......
a person who doesnt really hate hot weather finds its too hot today
(its weird right?how can a fat boy like me not hate hot weather....but its true)

under such a bad weather we went to paddys market.......townhall and kensington
coz she has to buy some souvenirs back to hk.....

and i get changed for 3 times in the whole day coz i really have sweat a lot...
but who cares.......its always a nice time to be with someone u like isnt it?


finally she has to leave.......i went airport with her with some kind of sadness?
i dunno.....

i just dun want her to leave and that is quite reasonable right?
she didnt walk into the gate until the very last min and.......

this is a fullstop of our holiday.........
after her leave........

i dunno when i can see her again
and i have to face the torturing reality again

tonnes of works are coming to me........
deadlines are approaching.........
so.......

happiness costs.....~its true!

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

brisbane~~!!!!!

i dun mean i went to brisbane......

but my gf did.........

a day is like a week long when shes not here suddenly......

but she will be back two days later haha!!

Monday, December 26, 2005

the eating day

Since Stephen went to visit who he called “barbara”, who was actually called “beverly”, he left his daughter to me, hahahh. I took them to pancake on the rocks early in the morning, to have what I regard as the best breakfast. i told them i would bring them there yesterday but then they still went eat breakfast before i come.......
Stephen wanted to watch the yatch event, but then we didnt know the time and place, so we couldnt see the event, which was actually good coz i and my gf didnt want to watch that at all.... my girlfriend and I went to watch King kong coz Stephen went to visit his godpa. It was really scary and horrible—how could they make animals look so hideous?? and how could people say that king kong is lovely?

Then we went all the way to leichardt, and spent a lot on the dinner, like 80 dollars for two ppl? i dunno.... which was expensive but scrumptious.
I never realized that a day could pass so quickly.

and so costy.......