xmas is coming........days in insearch are leaving

wanted to finish insearch as soon as possible
as it means i can go back home soon

last xmas.....i was so sad..........frds all left sydney..........
as they were on summer holiday and were all gone back to hk
left me here alone............
and my gf........deadly busy doing revision for the exams............

when people were celebrating outside..........i stayed at home and was doing nothing
surf on the net but the god damn network was just so slow............
feelings got amplified when there is contrast...................

i was even more sad..........
its now again december now.........
can only think of xmas when i think of december...............
here i am....waiting for the second xmas in sydney
i dont feel bad now as my gf is coming to visit me........................

on the other hand im a bit.............lost
dunno why im a bit afraid of finishing the day in insearch
it once was my dream..........

its true that time builds relations...........
i used to dislike insearch and ignore xmas

and im now looking forward to seeing my gf in xmas
longing for it and...........

i wanna stay in insearch for a bit longer.................